Mostly Good Stuff

November 18, 2008 at 10:38 pm 3 comments

There’s a lot going on at the moment, most of it good. So this is how life is meant to be? I had no idea.

Over the last few weeks I’ve become more involved with my voluntary work. I volunteer in a Victorian cemetery. It’s not actually used as a cemetery now, though we still have lots of graves. We have a huge amount of data regarding the 80,000-ish people who were buried in the cemetery over its century-and-half of active use, so I’m focusing on leveraging this data in interesting ways and making it much more searchable. This isn’t a purely altruistic thing – it’ll look good on my C.V. in a couple of years when I start applying for IT jobs. But mainly I’m doing it because it’s useful and interesting.

The other side of the volunteer work tends to involve a lot of clambering over gravestones in areas of the cemetery not open to the public because of health-and-safety concerns. By the time it was closed, the cemetery wasn’t exactly well-maintained, so many of the graves and tombstones have collapsed. It’s unexpectedly fun, but I need better shoes.

I keep waking up before my alarm goes off.

On Friday I have a follow-up appointment with the therapy service. I’m hoping it’ll be with the therapist I actually worked with, although it could be her supervisor. It’d be nice to be able to tell my therapist that I’ll be going back to work the following Monday and it’s all part of a bigger plan (a sensible, attainable and well-planned plan at that) that gets my life to where I want it to be. My life is so much better than it’s ever been. It’s so different being part of things, having goals, being able to work towards them, being able to connect with people without needing to be on the defensive constantly. So it’d be nice to be able to tell me therapist all this directly. After all, I owe much of it to her. (The medications help as well. Three weeks and the melatonin is still working.)

Life’s busy. In fact I’m suprisingly busy for someone who isn’t actually in paid work yet. The dental stuff should be finished in a couple of weeks. I’ve saved the best for last and my wisdom tooth is coming out in just under two weeks time. A few days after that I get to go and give a sperm sample to check whether I am, in fact, fertile or not. I’m not really worried about the result – I just want to know one way or the other.

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Melatonin / infertility / cake back to work / teeth (again) / stew

3 Comments Add your own

  • 1. adifferentvoice  |  November 19, 2008 at 11:15 am

    I bet all your readers with stacks of melatonin bought over the counter on foreign holidays wish we’d sent it your way sooner …

    So good to read that things have worked out so well for you. What was it that really made the difference – is there yet enough of a distance to know?

    What’s in the collapsed graves? Are there still bones? Gruesome – a friend was telling me on Sunday about his visit to Mount Athos, and being taken to the shade of a tree for a quiet drink, and discovering he was surround by bones of dead monks, whose bodies are lifted out of their graves after a while and their bones washed clean and hung around. A nice memento mori.

  • 2. Pole to Polar: The Secret Life of a Manic Depressive  |  November 21, 2008 at 12:27 am


  • 3. experimental chimp  |  November 21, 2008 at 9:11 am

    adifferentvoice: I don’t think it was anything in particular, but everything together. The medication definitely helped a lot, but the therapy did too. I don’t think one would have worked anywhere near as well without the other.

    Yes, there’s still bodies down there. Lots of them, in fact. They’re buried quite deep so it’d take a lot of effort to get to them, A lot of the gravestones were cleared to make way for a park and I’m sure a lot of the people who use it have no idea that just a little way under there feet are thousands of skeletons.

    Seaneen: THANKS!

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Hi, I'm James. I'm a 26 year old guy from England with bipolar disorder (currently well controlled). I also have a circadian rhythm sleep disorder (not so well controlled). This blog has charted my journey from mental illness, through diagnosis and, recently, into recovery. It's not always easy, but then, what is?


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