Back at Work

November 28, 2008 at 10:31 pm 8 comments

So that was my first week back at work. It went well. In fact it went by without any real incident, so it’s difficult to talk about in any detail. I have to go through training again, which is being handled via patchy one-to-one coaching with an old colleague. Today, being Friday, was a dress-down day, which meant that I was wearing a t-shirt. I was very slightly nervous about it, but it’s actually kind of difficult to remember that my scars might have any impression on other people, so once I was there I didn’t really think about it much.

I think they’re being gentle with me, which is nice but kind of boring. But I guess it’s a kind of mutual re-establishment of trust. The truth is, I’m much more able to deal with work now than I ever was before. I’m not dangerously tired and I’m not having to deal with my life falling to pieces around me. It’s the first time I’ve ever been in a job where I’m not constantly exhausted. Just being able to deal with mornings is astoundingly nice. I get up and have time for a leisurely coffee or two, do all the usual morning stuff and have a reasonable amount of flexibility built into my journey into work, so it doesn’t really matter if my bus is late. When I was working before I’d be so tired that I’d hit snooze until I eventually dragged myself out of bed in time to pull some clothes on, maybe brush my teeth and lurch out the door.

Breaks last a lot longer when you don’t have to rush outside for a cigarette. In fact it’s a year ago today that I gave up smoking (my last cigarette was actually sometime around Christmas, but I made the decision to quit on November 28th 2007). It might not have been the perfect time to quit, but it was so worthwhile in the end.

Looking back, I think the best preparation for going back to work was the volunteering. It let me get used to being around people again in a work-like environment. I’m continuing to volunteer there now, which seems to work out well. With the sleep being pretty much sorted out now (and hopefully for the future too), I don’t have to worry about being awake for things. I enjoy it, and the really good thing is: I’m actually developing skills and experience for my future career. I kind of like my job – it’s fairly easy, but engaging enough that it’s not mind-crushingly boring – but even with 16 hours logged so far, I know it’s not something I want to do for too long. It’s scary to see so many people around who are in pretty much the same roles they were in when I left.

In short, everything’s working out pretty damn well. It’s really good to be back at work and 16 hours seems to be well within my tolerances at the moment.

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8 Comments Add your own

  • 1. Immi  |  November 28, 2008 at 11:11 pm

    I’m glad life is treating you well!

  • 2. Rose  |  November 29, 2008 at 12:29 am

    This is all great news. Enjoy the normalcy. You earned it.

  • 3. auralay  |  November 29, 2008 at 5:11 am

    I’m happy for you šŸ™‚
    It’s great to read that your life is coming together so well- I hope it continues on this path.

    If you don’t mind me asking, what is it that you do at your job?

    I have to say, being on a regular 9-5 schedule with my job has really helped me manage myself- mentally, emotionally and physically.
    I always thought I’d hate the working world, but turns out I was very wrong šŸ™‚

    Hope your side of the world isn’t too cold šŸ™‚

  • 4. experimental chimp  |  November 29, 2008 at 9:55 pm

    Thanks all.

    Auralay – I assess claims for a medical insurer. It’s call-centre work, but it’s about as interesting and varied as call-centre work can get. Their staff turnover rates are impressively low in an industry which usually burns through people at an alarming rate.

    And yeah, it’s bloody freezing.

  • 5. Northern_Lily  |  November 30, 2008 at 5:01 am

    I’ve been following your blog for the past two years and I just wanted to say I’m both so glad for you and even proud of you. I’ve been rooting for you since the beginning.

  • 6. Alison  |  December 1, 2008 at 10:15 pm

    A year without smoking is fantastic well done!

  • 7. Pole to Polar: The Secret Life of a Manic Depressive  |  December 2, 2008 at 11:37 pm

    Hurrah! I am pleased for you!

  • 8. Chunks of Reality  |  December 9, 2008 at 2:21 am

    Congratulations on getting back to work! šŸ™‚

    Congratulations as well for stopping smoking. I stopped a little over a year ago and I know what you mean about having more time for breaks. The only bad thing for me though is that I don’t even take breaks anymore! I just sit at my desk and continually work, which isn’t good.

    I need to start walking around the building or something because I can work for 12 hours and realize as I’m leaving to go home that I never had one break except a potty break and ate lunch at my desk.

    Definitely unhealthy behavior!!

    Congrats on everything though. It’s so nice to see when other’s lives are looking up. šŸ™‚

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Hi, I'm James. I'm a 26 year old guy from England with bipolar disorder (currently well controlled). I also have a circadian rhythm sleep disorder (not so well controlled). This blog has charted my journey from mental illness, through diagnosis and, recently, into recovery. It's not always easy, but then, what is?


Self-righteous note about smoking

As of 12th September 2008 it has been forty five weeks since I quit smoking. So in another seven weeks it'll have been a whole year.

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